Memories...

2006-10-30T17:27:00.000+08:00

Its been rather a long time ever since i make up my blog or even blog... i guess i am going to "renovate" my blog abit liaoz... hmm... till then take care folks...

2006-09-12T13:51:00.000+08:00

Recently Singapore had just step up on the freaking security due to IMF and world bank meet. Its been a really busy month for everyone including myself. Life as a soldier seems to be always kena manipulated by the government. Even my weekends are also burnt for this IMF... Damn... But good in a way that it helps me to save money. Haha... Pathetic thinking... guess it is only a way of consoling myself.

Perhaps right now if there is a often reader for my blog you have notice that i dun have any links and i dun have any archive, it is just because i am lazy to link up with people... And the best part is... I dunno how to make archive. So pple... please come and tag me and guide me!

So far... So good... i started playing Maple now... training to be a warrior... and the best part is i am now having a camera handphone... Not as good as yours but atleast its my 1st camera phone that its for me! Nokia 6070... Planning to buy Data Cable to upload some songs and games... phew... hope can bring to camp....

2006-09-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

Been quite awhile since i ever come here... I believe many of the viewers might be thinking that i am already MIA (Missing In Action - for those who don't understand the abbr.) from this blog... but i guess you are wrong... I am actually collecting and taking things into account what can be put up and what cannot be.

With the Confidentiality and the Restriction of words put up by NSFs or even NSmen, certain things we can't really goes into details. For me, sometimes i am so confuse of what i can tell you guys and what i can't tell you guys. Coming till now, i have been in or rather attached to Republic of Singapore AirForce (RSAF) for about 4 months and 9 days. Its rather been not very peaceful in the Airforce camp... I do get alot alot of Shitty work from my warrant officer. Sometimes it just about carrying balls and obeying orders to make your life easier during your NS terms. Recently there is a surge of ORD-ing Personnel in my platoon... Everyone seems to be leaving... leaving only 1 new spec and 6 not very new man which included of Lance Corporal (LCP) and Private (PTE) ... Ah... Best part is there will be lots of deployment coming soon... ALOT!!! What a busy September...

Lastly comes to me... I am very pressured by my superiors of passing my IPPT... I didn't bother to think that i will pass, but after several session of passing ippt by them, the motivational "fire" seems to be arising and burning me. I really wished that i can pass and become a LCP before this year end. Next promotion then decide next year. Its always not feeling good when you are being pass on sacarstic remarks or someone who will keep reminding you that your friends posted in with you get a promotion to LCP and you are still a blood low ranking PTE... Isn't it hurting? Tio Boh?? Haiz... Guess i am really going to put in effort this time round for my running and my chin up.... ARGH!!! Chin up been really a trouble for me... How i wish someone will train me up... A picture to end my blog post today... Troubles never end in RSAF...

My Airforce logo beret and my jockey camp used in BMTC.... Memories...

2006-05-28T18:51:00.000+08:00

A long time since i blog. The last time i blog i believed its saying i have been posted to Signal Institute. Time flies... Now i have completed my Signal Course in Stagmont Camp. I am considered a Full Fledged Signaller. I get my unit posting. Its at Lim Chu Kang Camp 2 which is under RSAF - Air Defence System Division 163 Squadron. I belong to their Signal Platoon maintaining their communications radio and such. Can't really illustrate much as many things are confidential and classified. All i know i will be in that unit for the next 1.5 years.

Recently, one of my secondary school buddy had passed away due to a fatal bike accident. He is 21 this year. I got this photo with his bike when he got his licence not long ago (Should be 2 years back).
I not sure what kind of bike rider he is, but i guess he is quite a chiongster. I wasn't surprise of how he met an accident. I was surprise by that the accident was a fatal one that causes me to lose a friend that i know for 4 years. To me, he maybe once a gangster in secondary school, but he is a friend that you can count on when you face any troubles. We had fun, pain and done lotsa michievous stuff together when we are in our secondary school ages. I am really depress to hear his death news on monday 22nd of May 2006 which is also the day when i officially graduated from Signal Institute as a Full-Fledged Signaller. I did not managed to sit into his funeral because i am busy with some stuffs. I guess i am going to pay him a visit at his grave. "Seng, you will always be remembered by your band of brothers of Bowen Secondary School..."

2006-04-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

Its really benn a long time since i blogged... As usual... ARMY stuffs...

Since the last post i have been hoping life would get better in the new unit... Yes it is.... i been posted to Stagmont Camp as a signaller... Do you actually knows what a signaller do at the beginning? Basically... STUDY!

In Pulau Tekong, I am a recruit who knows nutz about being a soldier... so we were led to "Chiong Sua" or rampaging of mountains in order for us how to be a infantry soldier, equipping us on basic warfare skills. Now been posted out from BMTC, i have to hit back to books again... Study anything and everything gonna do with signalling. If ever anyone out there think that joining the Army will not longer needs study, i tell you, YOU ARE WRONG!! I have to study every single day!!! Led me to more misery is that i have to take exams and tests!!! YES!!! ARMY is not all about Fighting with weapons, brutal killings or even bombardment... There is also things like books that will make you mad, make you insane!!

However, i slowly getting used to study... now i become abit fatter then i used to be... looks like i am back to square one... Study, Eat and sleep... thats my daily routine!! Now i am on a 10 week course in Stagmont learning how to be signaller... Its been 4 weeks pass... week 5 starting... and left me with 4 weeks + 1 day before graduating as a trained signaller. Then i will be going to kaki-bukit for driving course. I will be driving a vehicle called Unimog. It is a vehicle with almost all the signal sets mounted behind... I am a lucky signaller comparing to some friends. They will have to carry those heavy signal sets on their back and walk or run! While me? I just have to drive to that destination and set up... THEN... SLEEP!!!! haha....

I wish my life will be even slacker after all this course... I hate to be a Trainee... I hope i can get my CPL rank fast!!!

2006-03-17T17:09:00.000+08:00

Think back when i first enlisted in the army, i was send to Pulau Tekong for Basic Military Training. I was like none other than just another "kuku" that step into a place where some people call that hell and some people call it a Free Government Chalet. Mix feelings i have before i enlisted on the 2nd of Dec 2005. I keep telling myself, since i have to be enlisted, then i should have to set my mind to allow the higher rank to "Tekan" me...

Still remember when the first time i step into Tekong, i had my first lunch which is chicken rice set. Many soldiers for the very first time before they go for their fieldcamp, they will say the food there sucks comparing to the food outside. I did same for the very first few weeks. I always graded the food as lousy when comes to food survey. But after fieldcamp, everyone will change it's point of view saying the food is good/great. It is because Combat Ration is something that a soldier will eat at a very last option. Fresh ration is always a hot favourite in out-field. As like many Singaporeans who have been living in nice cosy environment, will never appreciate the SAF chalet's Bunk until Fieldcamp where you have to sleep in the nature. Smells of urine and shit may just flew pass your nose at anytime of the day. Muddy or sandy grounds, Tree roots making your backache is often a problem when out-field. That is where soldiers like me will appreciate what is given to me.

Follow on in life of BMTC will be the POP parade which i had made it 15 of March 2006. Graduated as a trained soldier, increase a rank from recruit to private, i will never forget my brothers in arms who had chiong thru the thicks and thins with me.

Today i got my posting. I will be going to Signal Institue to continue my next chapter of NS.

Stagmont Camp is where i will be reporting on the 20th of march 2006. To what i know, i will be again posted out after a period of time from there. But definitely i will be posted out to units as a signaller. I just wish i am not going to be combat signaller. I just wish my life to be stable and if can slack most of the time... wish me good luck!

2006-03-17T03:27:00.000+08:00

Posting a Blog post on sunday morning @ 0327hrs is not what i will usually do. But i cant help it as i have something to share with a platoon-mate who is known as Jack Lee Thiong Wee. I am not sure whats going on between him and his section-mate. I personally had some hearings from different people. But upon seeing what he written in his friendster account, i realise that he is one of the minority who brought back bad memories from Pulau Tekong.

I hope Jack will come and read my blog post. Here is some words from my point of view without any influence from anyone:

Jack, I didn't know that you are suffering so much. But of course i am not the kind that will give sympathy to anyone. In the point of my view, i would like to tell you that you are not the worse in the platoon. In fact, before you putting any blame to others saying how bad they are, how they treated you, have you ever thought of what you have done, what little actions you have made without yourself realising it, have made others be disgusted of you? I admit that people do sometimes make fun of you, saying sacarstic words. But i believe they have given you chance to change. 15 weeks of BMT, i realise that your sight towards people has always been unfriendly most of the time or rather i would put it this way, you failed to open up yourself to let others accept who you are. Unfriendly looks and constant "stares" it is enough to make people refrain from being friends with you. Look at Firoz for example, if he behaves like you do, will he ever get any friends except for the malays? What about another example, look at Kusairy. I would say he is a fucking bastard that act fucking garang making everyone so fucking pissed off with him. I heard stories of others saying about you. Most stories i heard is your eyes. Although you didn't mention to me anything, but to what i known off, Luke had given your chance to be your friend. Any of the platoon mates out there will say Luke is a friendly friend. Why? Not because he is out to buy people's heart. He is able to give help without asking any returns. Even when people took advantage of him, he will just forgive and forget. Sometimes he would give encouragements by words or by little actions. I am not praising him. I wanna let you know that you can also. Habit can be change. Don't make a habit a permanent one. Change to be a better one and friends will come to you naturally. Look at me, I do what I want, I scold my friends, but in the end, how many people hate me? I dare to admit my mistake infront of my friends. I believe you can do it. Come back to think of it, isn't it better to have more friends than foes? Being self-center doesn't help. It may even bring u more hatred. Yes you can ignore it but can you stand people pin-pointing you for each and every step you made? You must learn to blend into the crowds. Trying to strike a conversation is also a tatical thing to do. Like YongHan, Section 3 give him lotsa nickname, we even slap him on his back and scolded him loudly for stupid little things he made. But in the end, he did not keep to himself, he still treat us as his friends, that is why he is lovable to everyone. You can do the same. Open your heart out and smile more, invite more friends into your circle. Thats all i can say... Action leave to yourself...

6 more hours to get posting!! Argh!!! I hope Driver Unit!!! Kaki Bukit!!!! Shall end here... 0351hrs... time to rest!!!

2006-03-16T07:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday (15 March 2006) marks the day where a young civilian turns into a trained soldier. It is a day where Recruit Soldier say good bye to his school. YES! POP LOH!!!! 15 weeks of booking in and out of Pulau Tekong Basic Military Training Centre School 1, finally, everyone of us have come to the very end of the BMT. It is also a day to mark our rank promotion, from a Chao Recruit to Private. No more sergent tekans, No more SOC (Standard Obstacle Course), No more 24km Route March, No more BIC (Basic Innoculation Course), No more BAC (Basic Assualt Course). The best of all, we are free from the lowest rank!!! haha...

Now looking forward for the next part of National Service... Vocation Posting... I wonder where will i be posted to. Definitely i hope to be a Pulau Tekong Driver. The reason that pulls me back from wanted to go command school is because of the route march... ROUTE MARCH SUX!! But anyway 17 March 2006, 12pm, posting will be out!!! Please give me Driver!!!

2006-03-05T01:16:00.000+08:00

11 days more to POP... it seems to be a blink of eyes that the Basic Military Training for National Service is over. Looks like i am passing out from the recruit stage and start to learn how to be a private or learning to hold ranks. In my point of perception, having ranks on ur shoulder or arms, will definitely brings you lots of responsibility. In other words or simpler terms, higher rank = higher responsibility, which is also equals to more rank politics.

Perhaps in some ways, a recruit will always think of POP, a rank holder who is far away from ORD will always think back on his life in BMTC and of course, needless say, an ORD personnel will definitely think of what to do after being given back the civilian life. There is this verse in one of the army song ("Purple Light") we sang often, "ORD, Back to study, Get Degree, So happy, And we will, Still remember, With my rifle and my buddy and me...." 2 years of NS for many teens may seems to be a waste of time and thats my thinking too before i get enlisted. But now going through all the thicks and thins with my buddy, my M16S1(rifle) and not forgetting my sergents, i realise that it is just part of our life and requirement as a Singaporean just like why are we struggling to get a degree. It is all about the same theory. Many terms i have learnt in my BMTC from various graffiti on walls in training ground and words from various fellow recruits, "SAF = [S]erve [A]nd [F]uck-off", "SISPEC = [S]erve [I]n [S]ilence [P]lus [E]xtra [C]onfinement", "OCS = [O]nly [C]ock-ster [S]tands-out".

I hope i pass out from BMTC and get posted back to BMTC as a driver vocation so i can drive my sergents and OC from 'D' Coy with pride and honour. If i got the chance to be in the command school, i hope i go to SISPEC and also get a 3rd Sergent and post back to 'D' Coy and transfer the knowledge of what i have learnt from my sergents to my future recruits. If ever i really got this chance to be a commander in Tekong, i think i will be a nice guy for the first few weeks and be a respectable yet "Devil" commander in the company! (I have lotsa weird punishment up on my sleeve... *hehe*)

Okie thats all for now...

2006-02-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

Its really been a long time since i come to my blog and post. Since there is nothing for me to do now, i better update my blog for just once awhile. I dun get to come to the blog much because i am just simply too lazy. I rather stick to my game - BattleField 2 than coming here to blog. It is not because i really that lazy or what. But just that i am simply not interested to come in here to blabber about what happen for the past few days when i am in tekong.

Anwyay 12 weeks pass and i begin to feel that i am much fitter. Today will be my booking-in day which will be later at 9.30pm. Wondering why so late? I guess it is because of the Aerospace Exhibit. It is also because of this exhibit, i get trapped in Tekong yesterday because of the fucking road block outside the ferry terminal. Damn it...

Now this booking-in will commerce my week 13 of BMTC... that is to say 2 more weeks to POP which everyone who is in BMTC is looking forward to it!!! Where will i be posted to? I hope its either SISPEC or Driver Unit... :D

For now... i must get ready for my book in... Got to Run peeps!!

2005-12-24T14:55:00.000+08:00

Updating my blog again. I guess this should be a memorable day because it is the eve of Christmas where i am here blogging my new chapter of life in the SAF. Actually i wanted to write entry when i book out last week, but i am too tired to do anything other than sleep. Just like what every NSF having their very first book out, we will chiong home to sleep first before heading anywhere. Its not 8 to 5 in BMTC School @ Pulau Tekong. It is bascially 0530 hrs to as late as 2130 hrs. Its very tiring. If ever you step into tekong for BMT, you will realise that the so called "7 hours of sleep" is all bullshit. Lights off at 2230 hrs, Reville (Wake up) at 0530 hrs and Fall in at 0545 hrs. 15 mins for everyone to rush to brush teeth and change... where got enough time?? so thats why i say is bullshit...

Now i am very happy for where i am in Tekong. I got into a very welfare company. It's called Dragon Coy. All my OC and PC are Warrant Officer. There is no Commissioned Officer (2nd Liuetnent or Liuetnent). Training wise started to be siong liaoz... Push up and chin ups every day. Scolding and more scolding... Guard Duty also!!! Argh!!! Sleepy liaoz... write again another time....

2005-12-01T17:30:00.000+08:00

I not sure will i have the time to blog tonight... but definitely this will be my last day or perhaps my last post for now till 2 weeks later... I will be serving the Nation for less than 24 hours time... so sad... i will keep this short and sweet... I am preparing to go for my last training to Island Taekwondo Centre... So... Farewell....

2005-11-30T15:51:00.000+08:00

When i turned on my friendster and realised that lot of my taekwondo friends had put up their victory gains of their blackbelts into the picture to "show-off", i guess i shall not be spared! I had put up my pictures of my victories over the years and also now i am butting in my blog to show everyone how proud am i to be a blackbelt in Island Taekwondo Centre.

History of my taekwondo life... I started as a white belt in Rosyth School during primary 3 at the age of 9 and gradually i train up to my 2nd Dan at the age of 20. Its been 11 years past. But however i stop for 4 years during my secondary school period... So its been 7 years of training... If you notice why i did not include my 2nd Dan belt is because i have yet to make my belt as i guess i will be much more "Macho-er" and skinner (i hope) after i serve my National Service. Below is the close up of my 1st Dan Blackbelt...

National Service Countdown: 1 Day more to go...

2005-11-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

--Post-Army-Depression Syndrome--

Today i went for a little shopping for my army necessities. I guess i got what i should have already. Now only left for some packing and tuning of mindset & body before my actual enlistment to my camp.

Today shopping i got myself the following items:

"Simple" Deep Clensing Facial Wash - $13.90
Prickly Heat Talcum Powder (BIG) - $4.30
2 Black Tape - $1.60
Black Pen - $1.50
Black Marker - $1.25
Card Holder - $0.60
Goggles - $14.90
Cough Drops and Flu Drops - $2.40

With all this item bought, i am poorer by $40.45.

Worse still, I went to the dentist this morning and for 7.5 years of not going to visit them, my tooth decay problem are worse. Filling of each tooth cost me $30 and altogether 4 tooth filled which cost me $120. So for the total, my financial lost was $160.45... Anyone wanna contribute some donations to me as part and parcel to save my financial break down? T_T

++Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire++

Although i am poor, but i still managed to catch a show at Tampines Mall with my buddy, Rose, whom just return from Austrialia, Brisbane. The show is awesome... Anyone reading this haven catch it, Please go to the nearest cinema to watch it now!!

For the start of the show, 2 more schools of magic were introduce. 1 school featured a HUNK... Another featured a BABE!!! haha... of course i will look at the babe more than the hunk... the babe looks like an asian... So cute and pretty!!! For a second, i thought the story gonna have an ending of Harry Potter going with the Babe and Ron going with Harmonie... But..... (scroll down for ending...)

There was a challenge between the 3 school on using skills of magic to defeat and win each hurdle. All together there were 3 stages to complete. Stage 1 - Defeat the dragon & grab the golden egg for the next clue to Stage 2. Stage 2 - Dive down to the sea and rescue friends. Stage 3 - Going through the maze and grab the goblet.

Challenger is chosen by the goblet of fire which is said to be possessing the ultimate magical power that couldn't be wrong. Only those who are 17 years old and above can be admited to the challenge. Only 3 challenger will be chosen. However to everyone surprised, Harry Potter was chosen as the 4th Challenger which of course, everyone is not satisfy cause he is just 14 years old! So the story gradually unfold....

Ending: Harry Potter did not goes with the Babe.... and Ron did not goes with Harmonie. But its all spells out that Harmonie seems to have a crush on Harry Potter and Ron had a crush on Harmonie... How will the story goes on? Stay tuned with me for the next movie on Harry Potter after the Goblet of Fire...

2005-11-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

Its been quite abit of time lately until i update my blog... Its been a eventful days over the time after i posted my entry before.

Yesterday, wednesday (23rd Nov 2005), I had my last training with Raphel (Brazilian 2nd Dan). He taught us some of the training he did back in Brazil. We did some back piercing kicks and turning kicks with partners. He also drill us on our sparring techniques. Although it was his last night, he didn't give us a easy time... But we still like the way he drill us. He is a friendly dude! We took pictures with him of course!! I hope to get the pictures real soon....

Today!! Nevertheless we come back together. There were, Dyna, Rina, Clement, JT, Shaun, Kendra, Jie Ming, Me(Asst. Coach) and Kenneth kor kor(Coach). It is a sparring training... So Kenneth kor kor set up a Endurance Training Circuit where there are Shuttle Run, Skipping, Medicine Ball Push up, Side Jump, Basketball throwing with medicine ball. Of course since it was endurance training, every minute, each pair will change station without any rest time. Total 2 rounds. So each pair went for 4 rounds under the supervision of the coach and me... So as usual, some stretching here and there... Then it comes to.... "PUT ON YOUR SPARRING GEAR!!!"

I borrowed Kendra's sparring gloves and went down to spar. I managed to overcome 2 good fighters (atleast to what i think of them as), Clement and Shaun. I gave them a good hell of whacking... Next was Dyna... Fake her with my right turning kick and do a left turning kick landed on her cheeks. Are you now wondering how come i did not mention about JT? Well... I gave him a back reverse hooking too bad he did not block... landed on his face. OUCH!! ya thats what he did... and he got summon out of the ring... I control when sparring with him. Sir saw in his room thru the cameras.

Oh well... i bet JT will be knock out real fast in the tournament... I still need better training. My next target to overcome will be Kenneth kor kor... So far, he had not been having a opponent that i had known of in ITC... so i shall train up to be the first one before i leave for NS...

My aim for Taekwondo now is to be given a chance to go for a sparring in any tournament and in terms of rank, i hope to attain my 3rd Dan Blackbelt after NS.

National Service CountDown: 7 days more to go...

2005-11-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

So... did any waited impatiently for my next blog update? Well... i have been waiting to blog my next post as promised. What causes me to take so long is that i am waiting for Katherine Jie Jie to send me the pics!!! Without any further a do, let me illustrate the whole outing...

Anyway the happening starts from 7.45pm when we reached Marina South...

Half way through the food, Kat jie jie took a picture of this... That was Kendra trying to punch me... SNEAK ATTACK!!!

This is what happen when a chopstick meets a crab... Orry, the crab talking to my pair of greenish chopstick...

Do you wanna know how to stop others from talking too much to you when you are having dinner, especially when those delicious food is infront of you... Solution is below...

If you still do not have solution to shut the talkative person, solution number 2 sure work at any kind of situation...

In New York, there is a statue of Liberty holding on to a torch of flame. However, in Singapore @ Marina South on 19th Nov 2005, new Statue of Liberty appeared with 1 red bean ice-cream on each hand...

Are you wondering whats the issue that keeps Kenneth Kor Kor so serious when sucking his ice-cream? Hmm... Well... actually he is listening to a conversation between a CHAO AH BENG and a BANGLADESH regarding prank calls...

Now i believe what brothers' power (Kenneth & Thomas) is when you seen them racing like a professional in a race below with all the spectators around....

After the race and after the food, its time for us to move on to somewhere else for our little chats and drinks... 2 cars drove us to Rochor Soya Bean Stall... Selling nice bean curd and nice soya bean drink, not forgetting nice grass jelly of course...

A few minutes before we left... Look at the war we fought and the result of the war...

Its 12.30am in the morning where almost everyone... or rather i am starting to get abit tired and sleepy... Nevertheless that was a good outing!!! Hope more to come....

By The Way, 10 more days to enlistment of National Service...

2005-11-20T00:58:00.000+08:00

Its been rather a happening week for me ever since from Tuesday(15th Nov). I will break down day by day and try to recall what's happening...

15th Nov - Tuesday

I had a heated argue with Mr. JT. He is damn unhappy with me regarding to how i train him. He felt that he was humiliated by me over the scolding i gave him and the way i spar with him. He is pretty annoyed and blame me for giving him 8 bruises all over his body. Well of course if you all knows me well, i like to do things on my way, my style and not heeding advices unless i agree to them in and out of my heart. So of course, JT got into arguement with me. In conclusion to the whole arguement, i decided that from now on, i shall leave him alone, let him rot if wants, do his taekwondo pattern lousily and also not to spar with him anymore.

16th Nov - Wednesday

I had a little leg itchy and hand itchy wanted to look for someone to spar with. So JT happens to be there. Well i did meant well to spar with him. I gave him a punch and i know its a punch... but i got accused by him saying it is an upper cut. He even uses his so called "Psychological" theory of sub-consciousness to tell me that i am doing an upper cut... Damn... i was so pissed off and stop the match. Immediately i gave him a unwilling apology to make him happy since he wants it that way. In my heart, i am damn fed up and went cursing with all the vulgarities i learnt through my 20 years of living on this earth! So pissed off... luckily i had someone close to me in taekwondo to turn to... if not, probably i will be the second Moral Disabled Person in Island Taekwondo Centre.

18th Nov - Friday

Miracles happen after i changed into my dobok (Taekwondo uniform) and sat at the pantry area chatting with Mr Kelvin Goh. Mr JT came over and apologise to me regarding that Tuesday arguement... Well... i dunno what's wrong with him. I was totally surprise. But like i say i decided to heck care him. So well... i accept the apology for the blame he gave me and i can forget the incident... but I will never forgive. You can say that i am being narrow-minded. Well... i tell you! YES I AM especially to this kind of person. I am there wanted to help in the very first place. But he just give me a damn and fucked me up, down, left, right, center. Now want me to forgive him just because he apologise to me? NO WAY! I shall see how he perform for the next few time before my NS then perhaps i shall guide him more... If not i shall tell him this... Sorry... I gotten better juniors to teach... You can get someone else instead. Thanks for not bothering me!!!

19th Nov - Saturday

Well as usual... Teaching in the morning at Henry Park Primary School and Tampines North Primary School in the noon. But in the evening, i had a wonderful dinner gathering with some of my friends in Taekwondo... Shall talk more on my next post....

2005-11-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

oh man... look what i found... an article about the visit to Island Taekwondo Centre by Mr Park Jong Sa (4th Dan Blackbelt) of ITF-Japan!! Read more about it with the link below...

http://www.itf-admin.com/article/article.asp?aid=28

2005-11-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

I found this on my friend blog post... and decided to adopt one to play with... here you go...

Try click on the piggy... Then you see the word "more"? Mouse over it and you see apple and spray click on them and spray on it or feed it with apple... Try it...

adopt your own virtual pet!

By the way its name is Zhu Chu... Try adopting your own and play with it if you want!! I had one in my friendster too!!!

2005-11-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

Its been a few days of boredom... My life is stucked between taekwondo and home... Its seems to be like a routine now that i am training on Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and Sunday. Saturday is the day where i go out to assist my instructor for his class. So as you can see... Only left with Monday and Thursday where i am free from everything. Its not i don't wanna go out. I had a little "unpleasant moments" with my parents and they sorta restrict my freedom. Worse, when i wanna go out, there isn't anyone available and also the places i can go is limited... Therefore... stay at home lor...

Although sometimes i got killed by boredom, but i guess training kills them all... Recently, i started playing this online game called "GunzOnline". Its like CounterStrike... 3D game... and i am going to do a short introduction to everyone. It is just like any game out there where u need to kill and earn experience and of course MONEY (which is known in the game as Bounty)... Its difficult at first... But its easy after a few rounds. Play game by tatics and concentration thats all you need...

Wanna play? Download this game for free at http://www.gunzonline.com/. Select the International Edition and start downloading the client from there. Well... so i have been "training" my character and my highest kills is 25. Now i am a level 10 player which i wish to maintain... so there is also ways to lower down your experience earn, so you wouldn't get level up so easily... haha... Tatics again... For me to know for you to find out... Not teaching!!! Thats my character below... Take up the game and lets enjoy it together...

Now, looking forward for Saturday and Sunday for more trainings... I love training with Island Taekwondo Centre because there is people i know and people that care for each other... We are one big family!!! I LOVE THEM!!! Of course, there is flaws to every good things... so just take it and live with it... Enjoy the game in life....

2005-11-09T13:10:00.000+08:00

Well, just adding a few pictures i found over the internet... Just some cartoon pictures of Taekwondo... Hope u like it... I am so bored waiting for my training so must well i find somethings to do...

2005-11-09T11:35:00.000+08:00

Ooooo around 3 more weeks before enlistment... gonna make full use of this time to get into my taekwondo training and of course gathering with my taekwondo friends... they are first priority... without them, i wouldn't know what is my greatest achievements and my greatest endurance is...

Just found this animation picture through surfing Taekwondo website yesterday...

Cool isn't it...

For those who are into business or just step into the society, perhaps this picture will tells you what is it like in the world out there...

Oh ya... before i forget, i mention about this Brazilian 2nd Dan Blackbelt coming to train with us for 1 month, he is here yesterday at our Dojang... Well... Quite a polite guy... but his sparring technique is averagely good... but comparing his stamina to mine, i think i win him by this... thanks to my Instructor, Mr Daniel Sng (6th Dan Blackbelt). Tonight will have more fun with him as my Kenneth kor kor will be taking the class... ~Wee U Wee~ Hope he can take it... lolx..

2005-11-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

As promise on my last last post... that i will be posting a link of photos and also clips to let ya view my grading sparring and those training pictures i had with the guest visitor from Japan, Mr Park. Here i am back with the links below.

Just a note to those watching it, please do not distribute. Thank you!! It is just for your personal viewing only...

Sparring Clips:

Photo link:

http://community.webshots.com/user/taekwondo0211

So long folks... Tmr 8th Nov will have a training class with a Brazilian 2nd Dan Blackbelt... Thats what i heard from my instructor... Will update again.... probably by tmr...

2005-11-03T20:57:00.000+08:00

I am back with my updates... Yesterday which is wednesday, had a great training with Mr Pak. He teaches us the various stances, punching, sine-wave movements and not forgetting some sparring techniques. Best of all being a experience sparrer himself, he gave almost each and everyone on how to attack and defence when sparring with different sizes of people. Of course, i did spar despite of the pain on my limbs.

I think yesterday the best fight i had is during a 1 min sparring, my oppenent was Jonathan Tan. To me, he is a person who spar without brains. Basically, his limbs control his move instead of his brain. He mimics almost everyones' sparring technique without really understanding why people do this and that. He thinks he is good. Infact, i think he is worse than me! Everytime i spar with him, i always tends to make him lose his temper. You must be wondering why i do this. It's just because when he loses it, it will be the biggest disadvantage to him. That when i whack him hard. Haha... Below this the scenenrio:

I gave him 4 combination of turning kick of the same direction which leads him to move back hitting the whiteboard.

Jon: Hey Sir! Stop! I am hitting the whiteboard!

I just stop and move back.

Jon: Sir... Please Control your kicks...

I smile cunningly at him and prepare for another fight!

But too bad the whistle blow.

Okie... Below is just one group picture of the SINGAPORE INTERNATIONAL TAEKWONDO FEDERATION BLACKBELTS TEAM:

2005-11-02T10:49:00.000+08:00

Finally the month of November is here... which means to countdown, i will have 1 last month of freedom before i will be "locked up" in the Pulau Tekong by SAF.

Just highlight of some of the events from the last post till now...

Between 5th October - 13th October 2005, i went for a holiday trip to China - Jiu Zhai Gou with my mum. Its a great spot to visit for scenery that can never be seen in Singapore.

This is one of the picture i took at the airport of Jiu Zhai Gou. Its cold!!! But i am strong! i can take it... More pictures will be provided on the link on the next post...

1st November 2005

Venue: Island Taekwondo Centre (http://www.islandtaekwondo.com)

Time: 0900 hrs - 1730 hrs

I had my 2nd Dan Blackbelt grading together with 10 candidates who is sitting for 1st Dan Blackbelt grading as well. I have to go through 9 exercises that work out almost all parts of my body. Below is what i did:

Light Skipping - 800 , Half-Squat Light Skipping - 60
Heavy Skipping - 800 , Half-Squat Heavy Skipping - 60
Side Jump and Crawl - 15 set
Burpies with Jump Double Front Kick - 40
Medicine Ball Sit up - 150 , Leg left/right Medicine Ball - 150 , Medicine Ball Hip Twist - 150
Do-gym-po (foot sole jump) - 300
One leg kicking the bag - 160
Jump Double Front Kick - 60
Leg Press - 300

Total i did 3270 of body work out. Thats my maximum man!! I am too tired to do anything after that. However have to endure. During my pattern category, i have to do with all my power. Yes.. Power... No Reservation... I am panting like a dog after the patterns.

After all the patterns, its comes my sparring... i had a video. But i not sure if i can upload here. i will try upload it on my next post if possible. Let u preview a picture of me sparring with one of my senior whom i regard him as my instructor ever since from primary school when i started taekwondo. He taught me self-defence. He stands a certain position in my taekwondo life - Mr Kenneth Kuah (2nd Dan Taekwondo Blackbelt / 2nd Dan Hapkido Blackbelt . Chief Instructor of Arts of Self-Defence (http://www.self-defence.com.sg))

And how about 2 versus 1 in sparring? Mr Kelvin Goh (2nd Dan Blackbelt) + Mr Kennth Kuah VS me...

I had successfully graded to be a 2nd Dan Blackbelt with effect of 1st November together with 10 candidates of 1st Dan Blackbet with effect of 1st November. Wish everyone including myself, greater success in the years ahead in life! Tae-Kwon!

2005-09-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

Finally... it is a graduation for me... I have graduated from IAP finally... Last day today. Left office around 4.50pm. Got lots of congratulation words from my 2nd Supervisor and my fellow colleagues of IQA. It is definitely a fun place to be in despite the crappy work loads through the 11 weeks. I am eager to show you guys my graduation certificate from Adaptec Manufacturing (S) Pte Ltd. Cool isn't it?

This coming Monday i will be going back to NYP again to submit my evaluation form and also to collect the NYP-IAP graduation certificiate (i think). No more exams, No more books, No more modules, No more lectures, No more waking up early, No more 8am to 5.30pm jobs and definitely No more restrictions on anything i wish to do. Haha... YEAH!!!!

But whats saddens me is that there will be No more cheap cheap 20 cents bread and drinks, No more $400 pay(for the time being) and No more jokes and laughter from my fellow colleagues. I guess i will miss the friends i made over there be it if it is Uncles or Aunties. Oh Man... Sad...

So that will be the end of this tertiary studies Chapter and entering the National Slave... Oops... i mean National Service Chapter. Soon i will be known as "Chao Recruit". Hope everything is well...

2005-09-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

Finally 2 more working days to complete the IAP. I just can't wait for the day to arrive. Everyday i have been going to work with the holiday mood. Before i can get to the office, i already thinking of going home. I felt so sleepy at office everyday... no mood to work anymore.. haha... Perhaps it is often what you get just few days before you end your IAP... its normal right?

Just too sleepy to blog now... just here to tell everyone i have 2 more days of IAP days!!! Say Good luck to me!!!

2005-09-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

Cool... its been a few days since i have post... did anyone miss my blog? If you do, you can always tag on my tagboard to talk to me... haha... i guess that is the use of a tagboard...

Just a recent update of what i have been doing...

4 more days towards graduation of NYP through my final attachment. In fact, i had consider completed my attachment unofficially on friday (23/09) because my Engineer filled up the evaluation form for me on that day. The only thing he tell me is, "MJ, i notice that you have been taking short naps during working hours. Over here in Adaptec, i closed one eye but when you enter the real working world, make sure you don't do that. It reflects on what kind of a person you are. Other than that, i think you are perfectly fine!" With that words, he gave me a Overall performance: Satisfactory. Thanks Sir! Just today, my engineer will be away for 1 whole week for oversea assignment. Therefore, i spend my working hours more on having coffee-breaks and chatting with my warehouse peeps and colleagues instead of hardcore working. Its a relieved! Nevertheless, my opinon on my attachment for the past 10 weeks, i guess working in anywhere will sure have problems and politics going on. Perhaps you can say that is stress and unfair. Looking at it in a different angle, you said that is challenges. But to me, i believed everywhere is the same. So i shall face it with my feelings and my conscience. As long as i know what i am doing is right, i will just do it. Even if it is wrong, i shall only do it not that often because everyone makes mistake. It is only mistakes that we learnt from and not the factor of success. Simple reason is No Man In This World Is Perfect!

Last Saturday (24/09), attended a BBQ gathering with my Orientation Year 1 class. Thanks to Alvin Ong, whom invited me to the BBQ session. Although not much of fun, but i guess i do enjoy the company by Chiu Yen, Kenneth, Bo Yao, Josephine, Diana. I am sure too that they had equally fun with me. Perhaps this could be the last gathering i had with them anymore before i proceed to my next chapter of life: National Service...

Lets have something about the future...

In 6 weeks time, 1st November 2005, i will be sitting for my TaeKwon-Do 2nd Dan BlackBelt Grading. I waited for 3 years to go for my 2nd Dan. I got my 1st Dan BlackBelt at year 2002. I am going to go into intensive training and the same time for my IPPT in NS and also for my grading. I hope it will be smooth sailing. I will post my 2nd Dan BlackBelt Photos after 1st Novemeber. Stay Tuned!!!

For now and Final of the day...

Hope those who miss me will continue to miss me... and for those that i miss, will give me a call whenever you could. Thats all dudes! Take care! Do give me some testimonial in my friendster!!

2005-09-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

1 week gone so fast... according to academic week, i am consider to have completed my attachment for a total of 9 week so far... leaving me with another 2 more weeks from now. Its fast isn't it? Looking back since the first week before i start my attachment, i told myself, "Attachment is a learning place. Earn money at the same time learnt something hardcore before graduate... Quite shiok!" That kind of mindset set me on-going for the 1st week of attachment. However after the 1st week, i began to get demoralised... It is because of the same work and same task i am given each day is the same... Create Inspection Lots and Create more Inspection Lots... "Am i there for admin work or doing something related to what i study?" I asked myself over and over again to keep myself on-going. So the days where i have been through, it seems that the time passes very very slow... i am so tired of working which makes me have the thoughts of taking MC and Absent myself without any MC. So far... 1 MC, 1 AWOL(Absent WithOut Leave) and 1 half day off... Not bad ah! I am planning for another leave for the next upcoming 2 weeks. Let see how it goes first... Fast to graduation... Song Boh?!!!

18th of September is also Chinese Lunar Calender 15th August which means it is Mooncake or Lantern Festival!!! Yeah... For the past few days before today, i have been tasting mooncakes from Ritz Carlton to Tung Lok Resturant. Lots of range of mooncake such as Snow Skin, Double Yolk, Single Yolk, Durain, etc.. Alot alot... Having at least 1 kind every day in office... Its really savoury... Yummy... *slurp* I miss those days when i was young carrying Lanterns with my neighbours and friends running and exploring the neighbourhood. But now everyone has grown up... Each and everyone of them rather to spend time with their computers, girlfriends or rather hanging out with friends outside slacking. Worst of all, most of them are spending their nights in Tekong or Police Academy or SCDF Camps... Oh My Gosh... Perhaps our days are really over... Haha... Thats childhood life...

17th of September is a special day to me... Whats so special if you are asking... It is the day where i officially accumulated 24 points on my driving licence and also i can drive a car without having the hassle to put up the Probationary-Plate(P-plate) anymore... Haha... I have been looking forward to this day. Finally it came by without me knowing much... COOL man!!! I think it is my dad that brought me luck... I pass my driving test on 17th September 2004 which is also my daddy birthday! See how lucky... and now 1 year pass... I will never forget my daddy birthday... haha... Now i can go to the car loan centre to loan a car without any worries of whether it is legal or not... wahaha.... Power man!! *smile*

Hmmm.... for the past few days, i have been trying hard and very hard trying to keep a distance from the special one that i have always been putting in my mind... All well without any worries, never really contact her much... But sometimes or rather a SMS to her and hopes of her replying is always there when the SMS send out. But looks like my hopes was dashed because it is either she don't bother to reply or my phone is spoilt... No SMS or calls from her until just now where she actually send a sms of Happy Mooncake Festival... Diaoz... haiz... its life man....

Well, Shall prepare to start my day peacefully and happily tomorrow... YEAH!! GRADUATING SOON!!!!

2005-09-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

Finally i have the chance to blog already... its been really days i didn't get the chance to blog. Or rather i am lazy... LOLX... My blog skins picture seems to have gone mad... so i decided to move on to my new blog skin... nice?? i hope it is nice...

Just happen to see the calender a few days ago and realise it is 3 more weeks to go... But looking at the calender now, it is 2 more weeks more towards graduation!! YES!!! I can't wait to finish up my attachment and graduate from NYP. Of course with that said, i will also miss the times i had in NYP and also the fun times i had with my colleague in Adaptec. So sad i am leaving soon... But my feeling now is much much happier than just pure sadness. Probably i taking it more easily... ya perhaps it is...

Just last friday, my cousin who is working at Adecco Employment Agency called me up to give me a job offer of a $12/hr job assignment for 2 weekend(10 sept - 11 sept & 17 sept - 18 sept). The first job scope is to cut and serve moon cakes at the refreshment counter of Stars Auto Pte Ltd (Chevrolet Car Firm). The 2nd job scope is to take a signboard, wear it and walk along the road pavement infront of all the other competitors' showroom to attract customers. Well... Saying that both their strategies work in some ways... but also attracted some typical singaporeans to come. Those who are out to come and taste the moon cakes instead of the car. Haha... Nevertheless, $12/hr to me is definitely a good pay. I work from 12pm to 6pm on saturday and 9am to 6pm on sunday. This sums up to $180 for 1 weekend... Good pay indeed... It is already near to half of my attachment pay!! Damn SHIOK!!! Looking forward to this weekend...

Still as usual for this whole week, kept thinking of her... not much of a change... I found out one thing which is when i called her up to chat with her, i often ended up talking nothing or keeping silence... Seems like my laming power had gone. No longer i can lame with her or rather say something stupid to make her laugh... Always when i talk to her, i have the tendency to reveal my feelings for her. I always wanted to tell her "I really like you... Will you be my girlfriend?" However i know something is stopping me from doing that... That "something" is actually words being told by her to me over the phone earlier earlier on... She tell me that ,"When a person knowns me very well, we cannot be in BGR stage at any point of time. To be in BGR stage, the person must get to know me slowly..." another thing she tell me is that "I treasure the special friendship with you. The special friendship refers to nothing exceeding friends..." With this 2 reasons, i really at a lost... I don't wish to think, don't wish to ask, don't wish to know... I shall leave it to heaven.... It is really ONLY HEAVEN KNOWS....

Let the Nature takes its Course... 一切随原吧。。。

2005-09-03T23:53:00.000+08:00

Its been a few days since i blog... So i guess my faithful blog-audience must be waiting impatiently and eagerly what i will write next in the blog. Hopefully the story below doesn't bored you at all.

Recently, COMEX show 2005 Exhibition started on the 1st of September. It will last until 4th September. 4 days in a row to allow Singaporeans and tourist to come and grab a good bargain at Suntec City Covention Hall. I indulged myself with lotsa fun looking at those booth models (Oops!) show casing their products. Of course not forgetting to look around for good deals and bargain. Today i went with my Bro - Emmanuel. He is a handsome chap of course. But he is going into NS next weekend. Damn sad. Okie... Don't dampen the mood for now... Lets continue. We look around and i bought myself a Sanyo AAA 900MHz rechargable battery which cost $6 per pack (it consist of 2 battery). The best part is buy 2 pack, free 1 battery holder casing. Okie so since its a cheap deal, i bought it. Walk around a little more, my Bro decided to get himself CD-R for some burning of songs for his car. 25 pieces of CD-R cost $10. I think cheap deal too. So he paid to the promoter $10 and without collecting the reciept and plastic bag, he moved on to check out other stuffs. We happen to pass by this booth, they are also selling the CD-R that we bought. One of the staff in-charging of the booth stopped my bro and accused him for stealing! Damn! Unlucky right? Of course we explain to him that we bought it over at another store. Then the staff took out his mobile and wanted to call for the security. I step in and tell him sternly right in the face, "You call lor! Then wait for security to come then we go and verify lor..." In my heart i was like swearing and cursing him for accusing us. Without saying anything further, the staff said, "Ok... Nevermind forget it, you can go." My bro of course blow his top and move on abit, he turn back and shouted to the staff, "$10 thing big fuck ah? Accuse me stealing! CCB!" I moved him forward telling him forget it... we shall go and take a receipt and a bag. Then we back to the booth and ask for the receipt and a bag. They gave us and bro suggest to go back and find that freaking staff. So i was like, "Okay lor..." We walk back to the booth but the staff was no where to be found. Fine, my bro was pissed and move out of COMEX feeling very unhappy. Bad incident indeed.

Today at the same time, there is also a World Food Fair 2005 held at Suntec Convention Hall. Started yesterday. Today was quite packed. The range of food wasn't that fantastic also... didn't get to taste much of the food. Only try a few... Overall comments for the Food Fair, if you are looking forward to taste interesting food, definitely not at Food Fair... Its almost all local food... or rather things you can easily find over some pasar malam or even small food showcase at your own nearby shopping mall. Upon 10 marks, i shall give it a 3.

Lunch time, Jian Wei, Benedette and Me had 7 course meal while waiting for Emmanuel. But he fails to come within 1 hour and we finished the food... Haiz.. But the food was nice really nice... it cost overall $35. Cheap right??

2005-08-31T20:16:00.000+08:00

Woooooo~Hooooooo~ Just today i got my pay from Adaptec... It can be consider my very first pay as its the first time i am drawing my full attachment pay from Adaptec... It is $400/- as what stated before i left NYP to join them. So happy... Took my pay and smile like hell... So guess my mood today... Of course very very very happy!!! YEAH!!!!

11 weeks of attachment seems to be a long period in the beginning but now, i felt it is just nice. Perhaps coming to the end, i will feel it is too short and i will wish it could be longer. 2 IQA inspector treats me very well... i am just like a little boy to them... Ya... A Little Boy... LOLX... I have a "mummy" in the office. She is an indian-muslim lady that treats me very very well... Cooked Chapeti for us, treat me eat bread, sweets and even lend me her pens for long... Haha... where to find such good colleague... Not bad uh~

Now is week 7 for my attachment... 5 more weeks to go... Looking at the calender, it seems to be a full 1 month without any public holiday. Maybe i should take sometime out to think what should i do to repay all those kind deeds my colleagues had done to me...

hmm... Wonder if the pay has gone into my bank... COMEX coming soon... need some money to tide over this IT show at Suntec...

Today a heated topic came upon between me and my friend. We are talking about "Rich Dad Poor Dad" Then we talk about houses, cars, education, money and many more... But in my definition of being a rich man is getting a house that is just nice for your family size. For example Family of 4, 3 room flat is enough. Privacy can be divided within the room itself. But of course if you have kids of different sexes, then gotta headache la. And moreever, having a home is a NEED. But however having a car is a WANT not at NEED. Spending on car, need not to have big big car or even continental car like Mercedes or BMW. Just a simple car like Nissan March is more than enough. Firstly just like anything that is big, maintainece cause big sum of money. So small thing, small money.

If you ever ask me why people needs education? My answer will definitely be "People needs education because of money." Indirectly i am saying we are staying because of money. "Money makes the world goes round" remember this saying? I personally felt that because it is just like when you are having a car to travel around, you cut the time waste comparing when you are taking private transports. Don't you agree? So money actually buys time. In actual case, we are being educated to earn money. Money to use is a want and also a need. Why is it a WANT and a NEED? It is a NEED because without money, we can't live. Everywhere needs money. It is a WANT because even if you have enough money to sustain your spending and your daily needs, you will still strive for more money... Who on earth will think Money is Enough? I bet neither you and me will thought of that... We survive with Money... So Money is never enough. Money is irressitable... If you ever thought that you had enough of money, please donate the excess to me... i will gladly take it from you... Keke....

For now... Take care Folks.... Will be back for more theory and adventures....

2005-08-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

It seems like today wasn't my day at all... I am definitely not sure of what i am up to... I went to work feeling great, thinking of Sunday outing with that special someone, i felt the energy building up in me to work deligently to complete each day fast and smooth till Sunday. But however, the sad news came in just 2 hours after my work started at 8am. She said she might not be able to make it, will confirm later. I was like "HUH!!! WHY??" Of course she told me the reason. But i was like "Duh~ I thought i had early early asked you out already and now?" Then i think again... Yeah She got more important things to do... So i told her to confirm with me when she could lor.

Come to think of it, plans have already made up in my mind like what we gonna do that day. But i guess everything crashes just like that. I guess i gonna spend that day lonely as usual. I don't know why and what happen to me after that. Something seems to get over me. As usual msn and SMS Benedette during office hours, tried to tell her something. But i just couldn't bring everything out. Then i decided to Shut Myself off this whole world. I mentioned that to her. Perhaps i am still so childish that i had to make everyone around me worried for once.

So whole day moody, no mood to eat, drink, work and talk. Its like coming to the end of my life, Time seems to be very still... Never ticks, never go anywhere far. I seems to be facing problems, troubles, pressure and stress at one full shot. Its tormenting. I began to submit myself to it.

When i reached home, i power off my handphone... Sorry to those who are looking for me.. i really don't wish to talk... No mood at all... I felt that this time round, i am really not the last time MJ that is suppose to be. First time i have this kind of mood... WOW! Different MJ this time round?! Perhaps Yes... But Anyway, i told Benedette a lie that i won't be going home. I am sorry Sis... I am just wanting to keep myself away from the reality... This time round i am on my own... Yes on my own... walking along with all the problems and stress. I felt very very very tired of what i have been through... i need a rest... a really good rest... that means... i am putting a stop to everything i am doing and thinking for even atleast 1 night or 1 day. I really need it... I felt tired and at anytime i will fall...

In 2 and half months time, i will be going for my 2nd Dan Black Belt in TaeKwon-Do. But i am still considering to go anot. I looking for financial support. Anyone?! keke...

2005-08-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... This few days i have been seems to be "hooked" or you can say "addicted" to listening to the song "Heaven Knows" by Rick Price. I must listen to this song for more than 1 time per day to satisfy my ears needs... Haha... Sounds addictive don't you think so? Nows lets review the lyrics of this song... Anyway my blog is playing this song too... My Favourite Song for now...

Rick Price - Heaven Knows

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,
Till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know.
And though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Chorus:Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope & pray
'Coz heaven knows.
My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her,
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine
But tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

'Coz heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Coz wide awake or dreamin',
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?
Heaven knows... heaven knows.

Okie.. So whats this song about? I personally feels that the composer of this song lyrics is trying to say that he is holding on the a love that he developed for a girl. But however this girl doesn't seems to return her love to him. It is often what we called "One-Sided Love". But however and no matter what his friends says, he still doesn't knows what to do... All he knows is hope and pray to let his love comes back some day...

In our lifes, often we met this kind of situation. Just like "Rick Price - Heaven Knows", we often don't know how to react to this kind of situation. For those who have been or is now going through this situation, ask yourself, at that point of time or at this time, can you really put down the love that has made you suffer?

For me, lets talk about the recent case, I had found myself gradually inlove with this girl from Year 1 SEG-NYP after 3 days of knowing her... For around 2 months, she had been revolving around my life until a day she told me that we are lack of something. That is where i felt that the world seems to be crashing down on me, nearly send me straight to the 3rd Dimension. Lucky enough i had friends and brothers that supported me and bring me out of the situation. Because of all the advices and thoughts that gone through me, i gradually put down this stubborness of holding on. I hold on to the Love for her for 1 month. I tried each and every opportunities that can be created or had been created to ask her out to be alone with her. But its makes no avail. So i decided to really let go, thinking that perhaps it is the best solution. I had her picture in my wallet all along. Then after that 1 month of hold-on, i decided to let go everything that belongs to her. I deleted those love messages and testimonials in her friendster that i gave her during the so called "Courtship". Then after 2 weeks of the 1 month hold-on, i decided to take her picture out from my wallet and put into my "Old Memories Photo Album". Until recently, just last week, the guy that like her comes to ask me during our coffee session, "Do you still love her?" This question struck me on the spot. First reaction i did was to ask myself, "Do i really still love her?" It seems so not me for the first time... Perhaps i do if she ask me myself. But i can tell u, I don't miss her... I now don't go online and quickly look for her anymore... Those are all over.... But instead, there is a new start to the whole story... But thats with another person... So Story shall stop here... =p

So what i am telling is that, I don't if holding on is good or bad. But i think to certain extend it is good... But don't over do it... You should know what i mean....

2005-08-24T20:05:00.000+08:00

Damn pissed off with what happen in the office today! Freaking hell... I don't know if i am doing Internship or working as an office boy in the company. From Day 1, i am being asked to do those SN paper which is creating inspection lots. Okay thats fine... Since my engineer from the start say that it is part of the job in QA. I thought it was abit only... then who knows? It is everyday! Everyday!!!! Alot of SN comes in... and i have to handle them myself alone! Freaking hell... I had been like treated as a cheap labour.

Today my section supervisor tells me to go and photostat some 2 forms. 1st form is known as "Ship-to-Stock Form" and 2nd form is known as "History Card". 1st form needs 100 copy, 2nd form needs 500 copy. Damn... Ask me go photostat. Somemore yesterday... My engineer ask me to go do something. Then after my engineer left, i start doing once i finished creating the 1st batch of SN. The next batch of papers arrived shortly and was held by my section supervisor. She can do it. Yet she comes to tell me that "Hey MJ, put down what you are doing now and do the SN!" I was like "WTF?"

Then just recent Monday, i am damn sick, i planning to take MC on tuesday. Then my section supervisor come and "jokingly" tell me infront of my colleagues "Hey MJ, tomorrow don't take off ah... must come to work..." Again i was like "WTF! Can't you see i am sick?" The worse is today she sacarstically come and ask me, "Aiyo... You sick until like that... Never go and see doctor ah?" Then i very unhappy and tell her, "Where got free go see doctor? Everyday have to work..." KNN damn du lan lor... They have medical benefits where they see company doctor, they can claim... Me as a Industrial Attachment student where can enjoy that benefit. Of course see doctor must see polyclinic one la. Cheap and good. Where got money for Private clinics. If can claim still not bad. Worse is cannot claim... Damn It! How come i am working under such section supervisor?

Anyway it pissed me off and i decided to show my attitude and write a letter to my Liaison Officer in NYP and tell him about it. Now i am waiting for his reply. Hopefully he do something about it. And since my section supervisor is so Fucked Up, i shall not be so nice anymore. Friday which is our QA section "WAR DAY", i am going to be on MC on that day! All planned out! Tell my mother already! I am going to lurch them... of course i felt sorry for my colleagues but not my section supervisor. She gonna do all the work i am suppose to do... Oh Yea... Don't think i am baddie. Because, I am now doing the work she is suppose to do originally as a Supervisor... I am just sharing only... HAHA... Leave her to die!!! I shall enjoy my Friday... keke...

Stay tuned for my next blog!! Anyway i just Ripped the Channel U variety "绝对 Superstar" or "Project Superstar" singer - Kelvin Tan Wei Lian (the blind with good vocal) Songs out. Quite nice!!! haha...

2005-08-23T19:55:00.000+08:00

Its definitely a day that not worth to be mentioned... Have anyone had any supervisor that comes to tell you that you are not allowed any off even when you are like damn sick right infront of him/her?

Damn! It did happen to me! I was stunned. Fine then... i did not take off today and went back to work with my Block Nose, Cough and Sore Throat. One whole day feeling sick and tired. Felt like 2 legs stepping into the coffin... Death this word keeps coming into my mind when i got so sick... But i am worried... I am worried will there be any other people bother about me rather than my buddies and parents... Will there be a special someone out there?

I guess i felt something for a girl... A girl whom entered my social circle by chances... I dunno how well about this feeling... but definitely it is something good. I guess i never had any chance really to chat with a girl for more than 3 hours and it is everyday matter. We seems to have endless topic. Somehow i shud say i really like this girl... Perhaps, and who knows, she is the special someone... keke... Hope for the best la...

Now i am really too sick to continue... Wish me all the best for my sickness....

2005-08-21T00:34:00.000+08:00

Wee~u~Weet... Comes to weekend again! Yeah!!!!!

Today was too tired to go for assisting... So i actually find excuses to skip the assisting session... felt bad... but felt very tired also! Therefore i decided to skip it for once!

I went for Health Screening today at Kovan Heartland Mall organised by NKF. Just for $5, they check for you everything or rather most of the important things. Haha... Oh Yea! There is this lucky draw thing. I went with my mum. But i wrote both lucky draw tickets with my name. And i guess i was lucky or rather everything pay off... i won myself a prize! Haha... I wonder what was it. So i am going to collect it tomorrow when i come home from training.

Hmm... in the near evening i went to meet up with Jian Wei and Benedette. Guess what? Both of them are back together again... i hope and wish they won't break off again... lets pray. So we go for drinks and more drinks. From Starbucks we moved to TCC then went for pool session. Okie. Both of them are pro... i am just a piece of shit! Haha... then come home...

I don't really knows whats happening to me... seems like the feeling of liking is back again... don't what really gone into me... am i falling into the well again? I guess i must control. If you are seeing my post... I don't mean to say i am out with a friend at bugis. Because i don't wanna set you thinking back in the past. I hope you understand me. I really don't wish to see you sad once again. I know you are strong. But i believed no matter how strong are you, there is bound to be a time where you will still be sad. So i don't wish that will happen to you at any time. Really... i don't wish...

If anyone reading this post and felt puzzled at the last part, i know i have lotsa explaining to be done. Don't Question me now! I will tell you all one by one whats going on when the time is ready! Really! i promise i will...

Need to go now... have to return a call....

2005-08-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

Argh~~~ Its just another thursday... This morning i officially slept at 4am in the morning and wake up to prepare for work at 6.30am... 2 and 1/2 hours of sleep... Enough mehz? Yes it is tiring... but i guess it is sorta worth to be so tired... I force myself to wake up and get prepare... I went to work with sleepy eyes and tired body... But i wonder whats wrong with me... Normally if i do sleep for 2 hours or so, i will be mentally and physically tired... But not today... My mentally wasn't tired, its rather wide awake... perhaps there is miracles....

So i guess you are wondering why am i sleeping only at 4am? The reason is i was on the phone from 12.30am to 4am... Haha.... i am chatting someone who is having problems... Don't you know i am a great listening ear? If you don't, let me tell you, "I AM!!!"

Come to think of it, it gives me some sort of feeling towards a relationship from the beginning of everything till the end.

I believed that in order for a relationship to last, first you gonna be friends... Well almost every relationship is started off as friends... Because you can't possibly seeing the person for the first time and ask him/her, "Hey! Can you be my girlfriend/boyfriend?" So friendship will starts building without you even noticing. In the process of this friendship, we tends to get to know the person well... and it is not to be measured by time. If you are quick enough, you can know the person in and out less than let say 1 month... But of course it takes time to know the person in depth. Many of a time we often because of knowing the person very well, thinks that he/she suits or compatible with us. I guess this perception is definitely wrong. For the reason is that perhaps is that kind of feeling that you think he/she is giving you. I don't denied that often myself is also blinded by this feeling which leads me down the "well"...

Lets takes a scenerio of a well for instance:
You and this girl is on the surface of the well... this is where our friendship started. Slowly because of some feelings, you began to climbed down this well without yourself realising... when you realised that why are you slowly climbing down the well, you will definitely wish that this girl who is with you follow you down to explore... so you will try persuading her. This is where courtship came. At every moment of time you are trying to persuade the girl, the further you climbed down. This is where your feelings towards her become more and more. Then as you went down, you sure bound to get hurt like being scratched by protruding materials, sharp edges of the stones and other stuffs that might cause injuries. This is where you felt being hurt and sorrow at times where the girl don't wish to move on any further or stay stagnant. Then one fine day, you reach the bottom of the well, you will sure be more persistent on asking the girl to join you because you might have seen something that you think it is worth. This is where you fell inlove with her and wanting her to be your girlfriend. But when you failed to persuade her and she decided to leave you, you will feel pretty upset and felt like dying or doing anything silly just to hurt yourself further more. This is where you decided to climb out of the well... Going down seems to be a easy path, but coming up seems to be a much difficult and harsher path...

I personally thinks that in no matter what sad and dejected you are in any relationship, you shouldn't accept another girl just to spite the girl that once broke up with you. I felt this is really stupid. Just because of your action, you gonna make 2 girls suffer at the same time. If you are thinking, "Lets have a Fair Competition then.." at this moment of time, i would like to ask you again, "Is it a fair competition can hurt no one?"

In any form of competition there is bound to be loser and winner. Winner will of course be happy. But how about the loser? He/She will definitely lose more than just a boyfriend/girlfriend. He/She will lose the confidence of how to face the same guy the next time they meet, lose the trust of going into another relationship... etc. On top of that, a fair competition will definitely not only brings both competitor stress and pressure, what about the judge which is the person who is suppose to choose?

In whatever case, just to spite the person that you once love and accepted others is really not the right choice. You may feel great for once... but when you hurt the person, you gonna stay with guilt for life. Yes, Time may heal everything but can it heal your guilt?

As like what i always like to say to anyone, "The Decision Is Up To You!" As a person to sit out and watch the situation goes, i can only tell you that i can only say with no action done. Because ultimately you are the one who decide yourself, not me!

2005-08-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

hmm... whats on earth is happening to people around me this days? Either they are as sad as what i am before or they just simply as happy as they are like me right now! haha...

Avoiding calls seems to be the very first time i met through out my 20 years of living. Well... I wanted to give her a call to find out how she is at some point of time today. But it seems like the phone was through... but no one pick up. I called the first time, and the second time... Still the same... Why? Really i am thinking why when i wanna call you and you always avoid my call? Is it even friends also dun be then you happy? If you wanna play hide and seek with me, how would u feel if i do it likewise to you? Certainly in my "dictionary of life" i wouldn't avoid calls unnecssary. Afterall you gonna face the reality so why not just do it once and for all? It may turns out good!

But nevermind don't bother about such loathesome problem. Damn hate the feeling to feel pissed off.

Well, Great feeling of being a disturbing person towards someone... haha... Don't know this few days like to call or even sms to disturb people... especially Alicia... Perhaps, i could say that all my brothers have went to the army... and now i am left with no one close enough and i am looking for one to be my confidante. If you are, please step forward to be disturb! Haha!!! But for now i already have someone in mind to irritate liaoz... so don't worry... so far you are SAFE!!!

Nevertheless, 3 months of IAP seems to be moving on fast... now is week 5 liaoz. 6 more weeks to go... I felt i am doing nothing but doing "shitty work" as known as "Sai Kang"... haha... really... I studied Electronics and Computer stuffs and i am given admin work to do... Everyday create inspection lots and do filing... What a life!!! BORED!!!!!

2005-08-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday when i reach home from work, the moment i was log into MSN messenger, i saw this quotes from Alicia's nick "在对的时候遇到对的人是幸福，在错的时候遇到对的人是无奈！" In english its says that "When you meet an ideal person at the right time, it is happiness. When you meet an ideal person at the wrong time, there is nothing you can really do."

I guess it is often that we people including myself often have this kind of experience in our life. Often we never realised that the person infront of you may actually be the one that really suits you. And we are often blinded by our dreams, our instinctly thoughts. Which causes us to lose our great apportunity towards life and ended up with just average chances which you may often think that it will always turn out to be not what you wanted.

Even if we really have the great opportunity, chances of it to lose is still distinctly high. We are often bother about how we are, who we are, why are we doing this... All this factor often makes you have seconds thoughts on doing the things that you orignially wanted.

Learning from mistakes is what we should do. Yes we do look back at times. People may asked you, "Why are you looking at those things have past? Why bother to?" If you are startled by this question, let me give you my version of answer. "Looking back in the past is to understand and analyse the problems encountered previously. A lesson can never be learnt if you don't go through the process. It is just like in class Lecturers and Teachers may teach you A for Apple, B for Boy. If you do not go through the process of repeated lessons and endless test and exams, i think you probably won't learnt. Yes it is true that we shouldn't look back on the past. But I am looking back at the happy memories and problems that i have encountered to improve them and make sure i do not make the same mistake in the future." I think thats more all less conclude our life.

So in return, on the spot i decided to changed my nick with a quote to everyone who can read my nick "幸福是由你争取的，缘分是上天安排的，爱情是我们一起创造的！" (HAPPINESS is something that you will need to fight for it, FATE is something that is pre-destinied by god, LOVE is something that we make it happens!) and for those that i had loved before, those whom i might be loving you in the future, those that are inlove, those who think they are inlove, Before you say you LOVE someone, think if you really love or just like? If you really love, i think love is define as this, "爱其实是经过很多很多的喜欢，所以我会对你说：“我爱你”" (LOVE is actually consists of many many LIKES, thats why i will tell you,"I LOVE YOU"). Don't you people who is reading this agree??

No matter who you are and what you are, regardless of looks and backgrounds, each and everyone here is given "rights" to fall in love with anyone you like. Cherish the person around you, I mean EACH AND EVERYONE... Don't be sad if you are being ditched or rejected because of no reasons or some stupid reasons or even some serious reasons. Learnt from the lesson and at the same time, prepare for the next upcoming relationship...

2005-08-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

Woo hoooo.... Just come home from a very fun day! haha...

Morning i went for Taekwondo Training as usual then i get to drive to training and drive home from training... Guess it is the very 1st time i did that. Thanks Daddy!

So afternoon, i asked Alicia (FYI: Alicia is my NYP brother's girlfriend) out to accompany me to the "Health and You" Exhibition at Suntec City Convention Centre. Luckily she accompany me there if not i will be bored to death... So i was supposed to meet her at Hougang Interchange at 12.30pm but i was late because i reach home only at 12pm! The best part is she reach there 5 mins early! and me? i reached at 12.45pm. Sorry to let you wait!

So we took bus 51 to start our adventure to conquer Suntec City! haha... sounds adventurous isn't it? Indeed it is. I have tons of ages not been to any exhibition... The crowds at Suntec was scary!!! Argh!!! Squeezy too... But luckily we managed to get through them with no hassle. The "Health and You" Exhibition wasn't that fantastic but we tried several gadgets like BMI checking machines and the smokerlyzer! The exhibition is basically about health products which they have alot like Kordell and optimixer. Then there they sell things like Sunshine bread and Pokka Lemon green tea. We wasn't facinated by that so we carry on walking aimlessly through the exhibition and exit!

Next we hopped to the next exhibition hall which is the Starhub Anniversary Roadshow. It feature MaxOnline, CableTV, Mobile phone... The best part is you get to play some games Free of Charge and they give you freebies! haha. I played 2 games! 1 game is row the dice and if it gets logo or "Channel 61", you get a free Celestial Channel Lanyard. I managed to get the logo... so i was given one. Next we went to play the memory game of mahjong tiles. 8 tiles shown and 10 seconds to remember! Of all the 8 tiles you need to memories 4 correct tiles in order to get a prize. So with the help of Alicia, i managed to guess 4 correct tiles which are "Qi Tong", "Yi Tong", "San Tong", "Si Sou". I got a prize!!! YEAH!!!! The prize is just a token of appreciation which is a key chain with a LED light and compass on it. I gave the prize to Alicia... Thank You for helping me! keke... We went around to check out other booth. There is this golf game at ESPN booth... a kid below 12 around there... Yes a kid!!! Golf the ball like professional... Each shot is perfect Straight and High!!!! WOW!!! *Stuned* ~Wee~u~Wee~ Both of us drop our jaws upon seeing this professional little kiddy... it is really "小屋见大屋"... hehe...

Then later we move on to starbucks for a sit and chats... We chatted many things, From Sky to Ground... haha... hope she is not bored by me this loner big kiddy... keke... One thing i found out from her... She had a bad habit of peeling dead skins off her palm... Which i keep telling her DON'T do it... but she still keep doing it... Oh Man!!! She really needs some help on kicking this habit... So bad!!! We walked down from Suntec to Marina Square which we find it boring... Nothing to shop... so we moved on to Merlion there... So Many people again... Until we realised that it is because today is the last day of fireworks... Everyone is there to watch it and chopped places... Even visitors from foreign countries... Guess Singapore is a good place for fireworks! Haha...

Time flies... 7.30pm... we decided to head for home... so we walked to the bus stop to take bus 70... Its a long wait before we decided to hop onto the bus 57 which we are unfamiliar with... Its say it will be going to Bishan... So why not for the very first time we take the bus since we are using bus stamps! Haha... Took us up to Bukit Timah then to Tao Payoh then to Bishan... Not a bad ride afterall... So stop over at bishan as i need to shop for AAA batteries for my mp3 player... Bought 2 pack of 4 battery then headed to MOS burger for drinks... Yucks... the Ice Milk Tea taste so bland... Not worth it... We chatted again... haha So many things to talk... 9.30pm then we left the place and took bus 156 home... I took to her house bus stop and alighted then go over to take bus 854... So she walked me there... How good.... got great companion! Luckily the bus come when i reach the bus stop if not she will have to wait with me... Thanks again Alicia...

Now i am back home to blog... haha... I guess my friends are all in the army and no one to turn to or accompany me go out... luckily thanks to Jian Wei... I got a new found friend... Haha... It is really a fun day to be out with someone which i just know for 7 days... lolx... Thanks Again!!!!

Okie... Shall stop here and Continue again.... :D

2005-08-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmm... Been days not blogging. Shall Blog tonight...

Today for my lunch The whole of QA office went for lunch buffet at Sakura which cost $20 per person. Actually i bought my lunch box liaoz. But i didn't eat it... in the end give away... But atleast i went for the buffet... Eat until i nearly faint. They have sashimi, sushi, beef steak, lamb steak, squid steak, fish steak. There is also tempura... Yummy!!! I tried all the food... most of them are quite nice... had my filled... haha... one word "SHIOK" to describe the feeling.

But something that really makes me paranoid is that i have a fear for sleeping... 3 weeks pass and i have no idea of what is a good sleep... Everytime whenever i closed my eyes, she will seems to appear infront of me. I want to stop thinking of her... Its been 3 weeks... I am having fear now. I give up on her... I give up on holding on to her. I can stop thinking of her whenever i am awake. But then comes to the night, i closed my eyes... and she appeared at the next moment.

Practically everynight, whether got people call or no call, i will stay awake till 3am before i go to sleep naturally. And i have to get up prepare to work by 6.30am. Three and Half hours of sleep... where got enough?! I really feels very tired... i really hope all this can stop... but when?! OMG!!! Please help me anyone... any method? AAAAaaaRRRRrrrGGGGgggHHHHHhhhh.....

2005-08-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

Okie... after so long... and luckily i have made a great move of moving from friendster blog to blogspot. I guess blogspot is much more trustworthy as it doesn't Lag! No more hassle just to blog something! No more Laggy server! Haha!!!

Shall cut the crap... I have spend sometime to change certain things like using new blog skins and change some wordings. But i am still improving so please bear with it...

Wanted to blog since sunday but couldn't access friendster blog before i got so pissed and move to blogspot. So let me give u a brief account at one shot!

Sunday (7th August)

Morning went for a little Taekwondo Training... Phew... so long never go training liaoz... its been aweek not been exercising... feels great perspiring! Shiok!!! Then after that i went home which i got myself a hair cut. At first i went into the barber i say, "Uncle! I want Armarni Short Short." So this hair cut suppose to give me Armani Style but infront damn short. But then later after cutting i told uncle again, "Uncle! In front long la... why not level everything..." I tot it will go abit shorter... then *boom* BOTAK!!! I was like eh... haha... nvm la... once in a blue moon cut botak... somemore my friends and bros all in army now!! haha... Unity with them!!!

So that day i wore a cap out during the night to a friends gathering by my buddy Jeannie! Met quite a number of my class girl... WOW! I am the only guy there who is in the class! I wonder where the hell are all the guys... but nevermind, i have lotsa fun time there... I left early that day and went to meet "Botak" Jian Wei. Haha... He just booked out on Saturday. So we have lotsa hell time talking abt life in his army and my problems i met when i got no one to confide to... haha... Although his advices wasn't solid enough to impact me, but still i am happy that atleast he is there to share my woes... Thanks bro!!! I appreciate you! I guess lucky man always have lucky shit! oops! I mean happenings! haha... Not long after broken up with his ex, he got himself a new girlfriend. Wahaha... So fast i have another "大嫂"! Diaoz.... Quite nice looking too.... Damn lucky asshole is he! haha... Cherish her Bro!

Monday (8th August)

Wanted to go work... but in the end never. I went off early in the morning to meet Jian Wei again... I went to Ang Mo Kio Block 505 for a little drink, thinking i could meet him there... So long never go 505 already. Missed the coffee-auntie and those food stall uncles and aunties. So nice those people there... Of course i am their regular as well... So went there sit down have a cup of "Teh-Peng" which is often known as Ice Milk Tea. Sat there for 1 hour plus before Jian Wei arrive. I met him on the bridge towards NYP. He wanted to take his graduate certificate. After collecting we walk around while calling Ronald... That commando ass! haha... He just finished his 6KM marathon run and he got so shacked that he push the time of meeting us later and later. Damn!

After touring NYP to pass time, we decided to call and bomb Ronald's house and handphone! Haha... of course we manage to get him to meet us at Ang Mo Kio. He is a bro to me that he always give me solid advices whenever i need it. And YES HE DID IT AGAIN!!!! I relate him all my woes and my thoughts of the situations with that guy, A, and the girl, Starry (if you read what happen in the previous friendster blog).

After the story telling, he give me a scenerio and he said:

"If i saw this handphone, i am like it alot and wanted it. My heart keep wanting this phone very much! I was thinking about this phone almost everyday until i wanna die! I have the money yet i dun wanna buy it because i know it is just a phone. But i cannot resist the temptation to buy the phone but yet i do not wanna spend my money on it... What and How would u advice me?"

I said:

"Wah Lan eh... Just buy la... whats stopping you! Since u like it so much now and you wanna buy it just buy! You have the cash and everything just buy the phone!"

He said:

"You got the answer! MJ look... Just like A.... He may tell you, "If my friend like this girl i won't go for her one." It is just sort of like a bullshit la... Just acting as if he is like a good friend good buddy like that. But in fact, under some circumstances, he will sure go for the girl. Firstly you must understand the neither A nor Starry owes you anything. So they have the right to choose! So you cannot blame them. But however the way you handle that situation shows that you are not gentlman enough! You are actually quite narrow-minded. How can you go tell the girlfriend of A this matter. Maybe at that point of time, A doesn't have the way of handling the problem. If anything happen to his girlfriend, you are to be blame you know? You are too over possesive already... You must give each other ample time and ample rights. Starry do not owe you anything. She got the right to choose. Just treat this as a lesson learnt. Alright?"

Finally i really seen through what a person i am at the point of time. I felt a sudden bastardy of myself for being like that. It is really something like the chinese always say, "当局者迷，旁观者清" (People who stands outside the situations have the clearer picture of whats going on...). I believe after this situation i will changed. But still till this days, i couldn't really just close my eyes and sleep... Because everytime i do that, my mind will start to fill up of her. I am really sort of suffering. According to Ronald bro, he say this is the power of love! Haha... i guess so... Lucky enough i have music to make myself go to sleep after an hour or so... But still thanks to those who have help me pass this difficult situation! And sorry to those of you that i have hurt during this process...

Wednesday (10th August)

Tuesday there is nothing really happen so i didn't bother to update anything. So today i ma back to work already... well... everything seems fine... no hiccups... haha... i guess minor misunderstanding between supervisor and worker sure have one so nothing to mention about... Well... Not so bad atleast i have lotsa friends who care for me!!! Haha... I felt so happy!!! CHEERS~~!!!